I’m 47. Potentially more than half my life is over. I wanted to live like a thin person. After years of yo yo dieting, I could no longer lose weight, pretty much no matter what I did pre-sleeve. After losing 45 poundss due to almost dying, I put it ALL back in 3-4 months! There is no way a person can eat enough to put on 45 poundss in 3 months I know I didn’t.
At that point, I had to accept my metabolism, my body chemistry, something somewhere was broken. I could control my behaviors, but I could not control the outcomes. I could eat like a normal person, I could restrict calories, I could exercise, but I could no longer effect my weight.
There are things I want to learn and do. I want to learn to scuba. There are many places I want to snorkel. I want to fly overseas without having to buy a business class ticket because we are too big to comfortably sit side by side in economy for 10 hours at a stretch. I want many more years with my husband whom I met late in life, but who brings me so much joy. I want to go hiking and take in the view from mountaintops.
I don’t want to be diabetic, have high blood pressure, and be an old, sick person. I want to be healthy and active because that’s how your brain stays sharp. I don’t want my children to have to take care of a mother who is completely losing her marbles, but manages to retain her stubbornness and independence.
And that’s the main thing. I want to be independent and not have to rely on others to take care of me. I need that, and the sleeve gave me a path to all of it.